My excitement on the inside slowly started to deteriorate as I opened the small package on Christmas morning.
Keys. I received keys. Not just any keys though, for a little razzle dazzle, they were keys to my home.
I plastered on a smile as I thanked my parents with a confused heart. I automatically brushed it off and thought “okay great, what am I supposed to do with these?”
And even now, I find myself asking God the same question when it comes to all of the gifts and hidden blessings He has granted me. I’m in a place where I know I have so many gifts and blessings. But I spend a lot of time trying to make sense of them all. How does my love for writing and fashion combine with my trauma of toxic relationships? I wonder how being a highly sensitive person combines with a messy family dynamic? And how does being a creative go hang in hand with feeling like a black sheep. Oftentimes, I find myself looking at what God has placed in my hands and wondering what to do with it all.
When I was little on Christmas, I always wanted to open my biggest gifts first. Just like we want to open our biggest gifts first on Christmas, we often want our big blessings the same way. However, my parents always taught me that the best gifts come in the smallest packages. And God is teaching me that the best blessings come through the mundane.
It turns out my parents gifted me keys to the house with a much bigger purpose behind it. They gifted me keys because they were trusting me to go out on my own more often. And with that, they were trusting me with more freedom and responsibility. Of course I didn’t know that at first. My focus was on the random, small package in front of me. I didn’t know that the small package would serve such a bigger purpose and put me in bigger spaces.
I may not know how all of my puzzle piece gifts will come together at this moment. But I trust that God has placed them in my hands for a reason. I hold them close to my heart. I’m so grateful that God trusts me with these gifts.
What gift from God are you looking at thinking “what am I supposed to do with this?”
Happy Holidays!
